everything happens for a reason...

I have to believe that everything happens for a reason. The universe doesn't make mistakes. This is the hardest year I've ever had to understand in all my years of living in this realm. I lost my father, my first pregnancy, and as of this morning, my younger sister. 

It doesn't feel real that my sister no longer exist in this realm. 

I'm waiting to board a flight, that I've been soo excited to take, to go home and visit my family. For the last month and even last night I couldn't wait touch down in New York. Now that I'm waiting at the gate, it's not what I imagined. I'm sitting here heartbroken, instead of anxious and happy. 

You never know what any given day is going to hold. I've been waiting for this day, only to find out it's one of the worst days of my life. 

A parent, a child & a sibling. I don't know if I can deal with any more loss. 

I just have to believe that everything happens for a reason...